I have a crush

 I think I have a crush,

the thought of him makes me blush.

We're in a weird limbo,

together, we make a funny combo.

Neither of us knows where this is going,

Like a river, we're just flowing.

It's a new experience, this,

feels a little like high-school bliss?

I check my phone to see if he's replied,

When he compliments me, I want to go and hide,

We're both taking this slow, 

letting ourselves bloom and grow.

I see he's warming up, 

can feel it in every hug.

I wonder if he thinks of me,

When busy or just sitting free.

He's intriguing, like no one I've ever met before,

So close yet so far, like the water to the shore.

Like an ocean, he's a man of mystery,

but I care for is our chemistry.

(Not)the one?

 I remember it well

in the back of my head,

When we were sleeping

together, just sharing a bed.

Went to the arcade

and had a fun day,

Managed to talk without

running out of things to say.

"Oh! What a gentleman"

thinks my brain,

The kind that'll bring along an umbrella,

just in case it rains.

Dreaming, wishing, 

hoping and praying,

let the paths remain intertwined,

as we keep talking and playing.

Months had passed

as we continued to have some fun,

But deep down we all knew,

he wasn't the one.

Bhai hai na

 To him, I'm his annoying little sibling,

Together, we can be totally unhinged.

Found each other when lost at sea,

What brought us together was COVID-19.

He knocks some sense when I fall off the wagon,

Without him, I truly don't know what would happen.

On the balcony, we sit and share our stories,

Of sadness and heartbreaks, of games and glories.

Story of Us Will Never be Gone

Aaj kayi mahino baad,

Ki maine usse baat.

Haal chaal hai poocha,

Zyaada maine na socha.

Yaad aa rahi thi toh bhej diya ek text,

Didn't think much about what comes next.

It was our song that I listened to today,

Felt the memories making me sway.

No, it didn't make me sad,

No, it didn't make me mad,

Just happy to have crossed paths with him,

Like that beach on vacation, I can't go back to for a swim.

He'll always have a soft spot in my heart,

You'll see his references in my art.

Care for him will forever remain,

But the heart has now been trumped by the brain.

It is long due and time to move on,

But the story of us will never be gone.

Just a Girl

She's just a 20s girl,

Living in the real world.

With her big girl 9-5 job,

Got through the day without a sob.

Went from living with her best friend,

To now being left stranded.

Restarted this city with little sense of familiarity,

She knew it was time to face reality.

Yes, she was down for a couple of days,

Oh, but she's pieced herself back in so many ways.

She's now strutting through every street,

Be it in shoes or heels on her feet.

Taking each day as it may come,

Saying yes only if it seems fun.

Plays with new boys who she kisses,

Doesn't get held back by the one she misses,

Every day leads to a new adventure,

Puts herself out there even if unsure.

Bidding (Good)Bye?

 I feel tingles down my spine, 

A reminder like a universe's sign.

Slow and soft, pages I turn,

As I move on with no plans to return.

Here I stand, bidding goodbye,

Reminiscing everything from the moment I said "Hi".

Bonded over breaks and dinners,

Hoping for all to emerge as winners.

Friendships confined within the walls of corporate,

Some I adore and some I tolerate.

Here I stand, bidding goodbye,

Reminiscing everything from the moment I said "Hi".

Got butterflies in my stomach

Getting to know you

slowly, and little by little,

Whenever I'd read your name

like a little girl I'd giggle.

It was a fun few months 

hanging out with you,

Got butterflies in my stomach

feeling sensations inexplicably new.

Realised gotta hold my horses

and keep my emotions in check,

But I'm in my experience-it era,

So I thought "What the heck".

I held your hand 

and you kissed my forehead,

After a fun day

together we'd go to bed.

I liked you and you liked me,

Oh, how everyone in the room could see.

It was a fun few months 

hanging out with you,

Got butterflies in my stomach

feeling sensations inexplicably new.

Stronger Than She Knew

 She turned around and walked away, 

Through the storm not once did she sway. 

Though alone but never lonely, 

Forever did she relish her own company. 

So close yet so far apart, 

For the world had no place in her heart. 

She became her own harness, 

For she didn't want to give in to darkness. 

She sailed the sea and flew in the sky, 

For she didn't want to sit back and wry.

Dance the Sad Away

She finally knew her place, 

No more would she fall on her face. 

She'd twirl here, there and everywhere, 

Nothing else did she give any care. 

She'd do 1-2 cha-cha-cha, 

Fall on her face yet laugh ha-ha-ha. 

She became the queen of grace, 

Nobody could catch up to her pace. 

She'd shut her eyes for the music to take over, 

Because the songs always helped her sober. 

She'd put on her dancing shoes, 

And try to let herself lose. 

She then feels true happiness, 

Because dance drives away the darkness.

Ghosts over Clones

I feel scared late at night,
Unseen eyes give me a fright.
I have nightmares that freak me out,
Only if I could shout really loud.
I can't help but live in fear,
Every night ends up in a tear.
'Ghosts' aren't the ones that scare me,
Instead, it's the real people, you see?
They're all around me, staring,
They're haters who pretend to be caring.
Only if I could live forever alone,
No more fake-loving clones.

Not Them

You have absolutely no right,
To go around and pick a fight.
Just because you can’t pour you heart out,
It doesn’t mean on anybody you can shout.
It’s better to come clean,
Than rather being to everybody mean.
You’re allowed to be upset,
But people can help only if you let.
You can’t put others down,
Just to show who’s got the crown.
You’ve gotta let people come in,
And throw that ego into the bin.
You’re hurting because of your insecurity,
But don’t let your problems become priority.
You get to eat sugar and stuff that’s nice,
Then why serve them meanness garnished with spice?!
I didn’t wanna be fake,
Guess that was my biggest mistake.
I don’t know what to do now,
Guess I'm stuck for long as a clown.
Can’t help but let it show,
Cause I need the frustration to go.
They were there during my high,
Only to leave when on the ground I lie.
I really am sorry,
I had no intention to make you worry.

Appreciating your existence

For you, I am totally speechless,
Cause you make me feel like a princess.
You just twirled,
And walked right into my world.
You’re awesome as hell,
Better than the songs of Adele.
We burn brighter than a flame,
Though we aren’t at  all the same.
You know the key,
That can set me free.
You just know it all,
Even the way through a waterfall.
You always take my shit,
And make sure it is thrown into a pit.
You belong in my wonderland,
Where your room is grand.
You didn’t judge me,
Even when I danced to 1D.
You have no clue,
How thankful am I to you,
For always being there,
Even when I had chewing gum in my hair.

Rose After A Fall

 Though surfing through the meadow, 

The darkness couldn't scram my shadow. 

I lost my way and couldn't go back, 

Only then with the moon did I build my own track. 

I've got nothing to lose but everything to gain, 

I will be shaped not only by laughter but also by pain.

Like Never Before💫

She seemed so happy,
Like never before.
She danced in joy,
Like never before.
She smiled ,
Like never before.
She held on,
Like never before.
She loved,
Like never before.

He's There （＾ｖ＾）

You think that they hate you,
Just faking around you.
You can't have a fresh start,
'Cause it has torn you apart.
It kills you on the inside,
So you just go and hide.
You fake a pretty smile,
While your thoughts make up a pile.
But still there's some hope ,
You know you'll be able to cope.
'Cause you've got this friend,
Who'll never let you bend.
He stands with you,
With him, You aren't a 'who?' .
What happened you tell him all,
You know he'll catch you when you fall.
You know he's there, You know he'll take care.

Broken

When you are broken from inside,

So you just want to go and hide.

People who meant the world to you,

Are the reason your skies are blue.

Everyone just tells you "nope",

So you start losing hope.

Though the messages are seen,

You don't know where have they been.

The distance has increased,

So the fear of losing has decreased.

You've changed so much,

Like you're holding on a grudge.

That Moment

That moment when no one understands, 

You feel like you're held back by hands.

Even when everyone is around,

You feel you're the only on the ground.

No one sees your sorrow behind the happiness,

No one sees the individuality behind the oneness.

That moment when you lie in bed,

With hundreds of things going on in your head.

When you just sit to study, 

The bells rings, oh! there's your buddy.

When you can't explain what you feel,

So you just sit there and heal.

Brother

He is the reason we always fight, 

according to him, he's always right.

He annoys me a lot and could kill me in a single shot.

But...if he wasn't there, 

I'd be like, "I am where?!".

He takes me to the movies, 

and also buys me toffees.

I love him to the moon and back, 

sometimes, he carries me like a backpack!