I have a crush

 I think I have a crush,

the thought of him makes me blush.

We're in a weird limbo,

together, we make a funny combo.

Neither of us knows where this is going,

Like a river, we're just flowing.

It's a new experience, this,

feels a little like high-school bliss?

I check my phone to see if he's replied,

When he compliments me, I want to go and hide,

We're both taking this slow, 

letting ourselves bloom and grow.

I see he's warming up, 

can feel it in every hug.

I wonder if he thinks of me,

When busy or just sitting free.

He's intriguing, like no one I've ever met before,

So close yet so far, like the water to the shore.

Like an ocean, he's a man of mystery,

but I care for is our chemistry.

(Not)the one?

 I remember it well

in the back of my head,

When we were sleeping

together, just sharing a bed.

Went to the arcade

and had a fun day,

Managed to talk without

running out of things to say.

"Oh! What a gentleman"

thinks my brain,

The kind that'll bring along an umbrella,

just in case it rains.

Dreaming, wishing, 

hoping and praying,

let the paths remain intertwined,

as we keep talking and playing.

Months had passed

as we continued to have some fun,

But deep down we all knew,

he wasn't the one.

Bhai hai na

 To him, I'm his annoying little sibling,

Together, we can be totally unhinged.

Found each other when lost at sea,

What brought us together was COVID-19.

He knocks some sense when I fall off the wagon,

Without him, I truly don't know what would happen.

On the balcony, we sit and share our stories,

Of sadness and heartbreaks, of games and glories.

Story of Us Will Never be Gone

Aaj kayi mahino baad,

Ki maine usse baat.

Haal chaal hai poocha,

Zyaada maine na socha.

Yaad aa rahi thi toh bhej diya ek text,

Didn't think much about what comes next.

It was our song that I listened to today,

Felt the memories making me sway.

No, it didn't make me sad,

No, it didn't make me mad,

Just happy to have crossed paths with him,

Like that beach on vacation, I can't go back to for a swim.

He'll always have a soft spot in my heart,

You'll see his references in my art.

Care for him will forever remain,

But the heart has now been trumped by the brain.

It is long due and time to move on,

But the story of us will never be gone.

Just a Girl

She's just a 20s girl,

Living in the real world.

With her big girl 9-5 job,

Got through the day without a sob.

Went from living with her best friend,

To now being left stranded.

Restarted this city with little sense of familiarity,

She knew it was time to face reality.

Yes, she was down for a couple of days,

Oh, but she's pieced herself back in so many ways.

She's now strutting through every street,

Be it in shoes or heels on her feet.

Taking each day as it may come,

Saying yes only if it seems fun.

Plays with new boys who she kisses,

Doesn't get held back by the one she misses,

Every day leads to a new adventure,

Puts herself out there even if unsure.

Bidding (Good)Bye?

 I feel tingles down my spine, 

A reminder like a universe's sign.

Slow and soft, pages I turn,

As I move on with no plans to return.

Here I stand, bidding goodbye,

Reminiscing everything from the moment I said "Hi".

Bonded over breaks and dinners,

Hoping for all to emerge as winners.

Friendships confined within the walls of corporate,

Some I adore and some I tolerate.

Here I stand, bidding goodbye,

Reminiscing everything from the moment I said "Hi".

Got butterflies in my stomach

Getting to know you

slowly, and little by little,

Whenever I'd read your name

like a little girl I'd giggle.

It was a fun few months 

hanging out with you,

Got butterflies in my stomach

feeling sensations inexplicably new.

Realised gotta hold my horses

and keep my emotions in check,

But I'm in my experience-it era,

So I thought "What the heck".

I held your hand 

and you kissed my forehead,

After a fun day

together we'd go to bed.

I liked you and you liked me,

Oh, how everyone in the room could see.

It was a fun few months 

hanging out with you,

Got butterflies in my stomach

feeling sensations inexplicably new.